lies?

cyril and i always chat..( i met him through D_ _ after john)and weve been dating online for more than a month now..
i was offended yesterday cuz he was using cam while im not online?
i mean what is that all about?..i guess im not the only one for him (as he always say im the only one!)
and he asked me.. he said why is that whenever we have an argument im always online at that dating site? (ehheh)
..We planned to meet on september..(hope)

make me hate you

make me hate you

I always try to do the right thing even thou i always got hurt!. 

always try to be fair cause i want them to be fair with me too ..why? cause despite of having 99.9 % of unfair people here on planet earth?. i still believe and hope that somewhere out there..there is someone's still waiting for someone like me... 

But guys dont ever think that girl dont know anything when they are not around!. 

WOMEN INSTINCT is always right.. (they dont get wrong).. 

If you want us to be honest then start it with yourself..the reason why girls cheat and lie is because of you guys..I RATHER GET HURT TO KNOW THE TRUTH than HAPPY IN BELIEVING THAT YOU ARE HONEST THOU ITS NOT!. 

My behavior is depend on how you guys handled me.. 

BUt as days goes on...the more lies you do is the more i start on hating you!..and the more i started on cheating on you..i always try to be honest ( i swear!)BUT GUYS PLS DONT TAKE ADVANTAGE ON me.. 

If you dont know how to treat me as i wanted you to treat me?..then leave me alone cuz i dont want you to piss me OFF! 

If i changed?/ then that is because of you.. 

in FRIENDS matter..you still dont need to lie be honest to be able for us to know each other well.. dont over reacting.. 

another dream

i dreamed of Aaron last night..and also dream of him 4 days ago... i dont know why..I stopped thinking of him since 5 months ago..hope youre doin fine always..

I still do care mahal ko :)

Why john?

i open my add on D_ _ this morning and see if john was online.. he hasn't been online for more than 7 days now..but this morning when i try to check if he's online ..i was shocked cause hes online 16 hours ago..and yet i dont get any message from him..

I was thinking that the reason why i dont get or receive message from him is that maybe because he's to busy to send message and have to time to go online..

I did txt him 2 days ago...but i dont get any reply.. i was wondering why..what did i do wrong anyway for him to acted like that.?.that behavior mean something..

but anyway i decided not to confront him..and i got this thought that he might not reply..so better not to.. (right?)And also i decided not to communicate with him anymore..i delete his cp number to my phone book nor hos email add..

I use to like him but i got offended and turned off cause of this kind of behavior...Soo immature!

.Anyway its 10:07 pm now..need to sleep...Good night bloggers :)

i met him

i went to Cebu to meet John..last May 22, 2011 . I feel nervous cause this our first date..We've only talked on Ym and txting each other every day before and after bed time..(i met him on dating site DIA)


I slept at his condo ..his condo has the nice view of cebu.. you can see the nice view of sunset and sunrise..we only spent 1 night on our first date.. WE stroll to Gaisano Ayala Mall..watch movies (Priest 2011)

WE also share thoughts and idea about life while drinking his favorite coffee (on his favorite coffee shop).
be bought Cd's but we ddnt get a chance to watch them cause he is sleepy already..

I woke up early in the morning to see the nice view of his hotel..and my flight back to Davao is at 11:05 so we ate break fast and went to buy some Pasalubong for my friends..

And we went home after that..but feels like i dont wanna leave.but anyway i still have a job to attend (and him too)..


After seeing each other we kept on txting and planned to chat again Cam to cam..

BUT at this point of time..we stopped txting each other cause of one mis-understanding thing..
One day before we argue he called me and say we can chat tomorrow at 9pm cam to cam..HE said he dont want me to go out at late (9:00pm) cause he was worried that i will walk at night alone (internet cafe)..but i insist soo...we settle that date...

But when the time came ...i was online early and buzz him..but he over reacted..like "ooh our planned was 9:00pm and not 8:00pm..anyway i just told him that " im home already and i an go oline to chat say 8pm?..
anyway i just asked him not tell him or force him to chat..

BUt he started on over reacting like...(just that huh)..

HE: said i was at the mall..and then i asked "whats with the mall?..

and HE replied like "why so mean?
am i mean by asking him?..
i even told him that "take your time and do whatever you want...

But he said i was at the mall (2 different mall) to buy some head set for my staff..they were walking 18 hours and need to take care of them.. 

HE said i have to stop txting right now to rashly home to chat with you..but at  8:58pm HE said im home.are you there..i can only chat for 30 minutes and need to go back at the office..

I was thinking of chatting with him for more than 1 hour but he cant...we planned for this..and now?...he's telling me that he cant?..

strange thing about that is.. that he's using his mobile email add on chatting with me..he only using that account when he's using his phone and not his laptop.. i mean his laptop and his mobile have 2 different user name..
I guess he was lying that he's already at home.

.Maybe hes with that some other girl at coffee shop again (coffee shop has WIFI you know) like what he always do when were together..and also every time we chat we always use CAM..but strange thing is that he ddnt USE CAM and aslo he never asked me to invite him to my cam like what we always do..we can txt through Cellphone you know..the purpose why we chat on YM is because we want to see each other on cam (its long distance anyway)

Women instinct was there again (oh my)..ehehe.
i was upset and at the same time sad..and so i told HIM that he can go back to his office and do whatever he wants..and he said i guess i was just explaining..

Am I getting paranoid? or hes hiding something from me? i really hate liar and air head people!

Would you choose love or money?.

Would you choose love or money?.

If you like him cause of his MONEY?.then you only WANT him (cause of what he have) and Not NEED him

(cause you do L♥ve him and cant live with out him)..

There is a big differences between NEED and WANTS.. 

I Would Choose Love 

Money may buy a little happiness, but not the happiness of true L♥ve.

I rather have a true soul mate than a private jet.

And while many people may claim they would choose love too... (kiss my ass)

I’m one of the few who would really do it. (l♥ve_ L♥ve_L♥ove)