im crazy for you

im crazy...yes i am..but someday you'll miss this craziness of mine.But for sure?.im REAL!

Those people who cant understand me?..are those people who has a problem and not me..

Do i need to be really crazy for you to like me..

I need to do something for my self. you know

Just tell me if you dont need me..

Just tell me  if im nothing to you

just tell me if im wasting your time..

Just tell me if you cannot give yourself to me

Cuz someone is always waiting for someone who needs one to love and be loved..

why cant you understand me?

why cant you kept your promise?

Why cant you be serious sometimes?

why laughing at me when im HURT?

WHy are you soo insensitive? 

ARE you selfish?..

belly dancing

I join belly dancing to keep myself busy instead of thinking 'bout Mr.C ..to much attention on him makes my heart upset so easily :(..

i always thinking about Mr.C and soo sometimes wen we argue i got easily hurt and it was soo painful..so better to keep myself busy on many things..(anyway im not sure if he really mean that he loves me)..

But anyway?..i never attempt on cheating on him.I still believe that someday God will bless me with Mr.C's L♥VE...

I want him to be the last guy whom i will L♥ve

the last guy whom i will share my bed

The First and last guy whom i will give my LIFE

the First and last guy who will be the father of my kids 

 To Cook for him,wash his clothes,clean the house and waiting for him while his working :)

Ins't perfect?.. :)

I still forgived him :)

believing in lies doesn't mean that you are a fool..(for me)it means you do accept that person for who he is and what he has..(agree?)And that you are willing to accept his lies coz you love him... :)... and im not yet tired of believing :) coz thats how my L♥ve/heart functions when im loving someone.. :)...ehehhe

Coz you are my baby and happiness :)

I love you

Mei Dee

i caught Mr.C that his profile has a girl named Mei Dee that he
 is chatting with other girls..i was crying and dont know what to feel...
And i was confronting him but he's trying scape from it..ANd keep on saying "again and again..
and he even left me hanged... :( after all the myth about snake is still excess... :(

love make you do crazy things?

Love makes me do crazy thing cuz whenever im inlove im loosing control?..and doin thing "that i've never been done before?.

2.       and ....and ...and..Love is when you are in the middle of an argument, and you just know you are right, yet because you LOVE that person, you choose to accept it and believe in him..(cuz you love him).

he is mine

Mr.C and I are ok again. We've talk and fix this argument..

Im soo brat maybe..but i just want him to be mine only..dont want any girl flirt on him.

Im melting on jealous Thinking that other girl is thinking of him the way I DO.

flirting on him the way I DO..

I hate to think that some girls are crazy inlove with him the way i do.(cuz i want him to be mine only)

And im going soo crazy thinking that they are dying to hold him,kiss him and touch him the way I WISH I COULD DO to him always...

Thinking that Mr.C is smiling at them makes me sooo crazy!! and so jealous ..cuz i want that beautiful smile to be mine ONLY...

Call me selfish I dont mind.. But can you blame me on loving him this much?..my love for him makes me crazy!..

I wish i could just lock him inside my heart so that he cannot scape from me anymore (ehhehe)..CUz i want him to be MINE ONLY..

And the most painful is??.i dont think i can move on easily if he's GONE..

My heart need him and i want him in my LIFE.. 

Im soo single you know..

and i dont want to have a DATe with anyone anymore..

Im stick to one..and i will surely do (as long as i have Mr.C)...

God Bless me and my Baby ko..Amen

exchange of heart to understand how i feel

Mr.C and I had argue last night..and now he's mad me and i think he broked up with me (i guess)..
It was hurt ..(but hurt? its always there)..(when you love someone then expect the pain)
I just want to see his face always..but we only get a chance to see each other on cam every after 2 weeks of my shift.. (anyway we can make a change to this if he only want but its tooo late now)..

Im always expecting something from him....but i always got "zero"(or maybe atleast 30% only) result...i just want the signs of  LOVE..my fault also..but i guess this is the END of it..

thank you guys for reading my blog..i have more than 300 readers now :)

regards luiese

Black and white snake :(

i had a dream last night..its about black snake, me and my mahal ko (MR.C) ..I was looking for him Everywhere…

Looking for him all over the place (and he do too)..

We were just talking and he’s holding his CAM and taking pictures everywhere..and im just walking around looking for something..but I was shocked and scared when I saw a “BIG BLACK SNAKE” ..then I try to run and look for him to aware him about that snake (might hurt him or me)..but everywhere That snake is always on my way to HIM..I looked for him everywhere but what i always FOUND is a " BIG BLACK SNAKE"!!(again and again) i was afraid.    

.then i woke up! and realized it was only a dream..but the feeling of being afraid was still there..

I try to sleep again cuz its still early..but then when I fall a sleep??. theres  that BLACK snake again.. And my body was cold coz im sooo  scared of it…  

Then again I woke up..and again it was ONLY a DREAM!! Then I sleep again..and look for him again and again but I found that black snake AGAIN (that snake wont go away!!its always on my way) :( im scared (hell SCARED) :( but it ddnt bite at all..i don’t  know why..The snake just crawling and It ddnt looking at me either but it like It showing me something..(what was that dream all about?)  i dream of it 3 times in just 1 night only!!