another wedding again? (ugh)

oh men! my girl friend called me and said she's getting married soon :) (sigh)

All of my friends were getting married and i think im gonna be single till im 60? (heheh)

SHe's so happy i can feel it.

Shes soo happy when she was telling me that "girl im getting married after 6 months ;)

I was happy for her..and you know it..

But suddenly i was stopped when she asked me "what about you?when are you gonna get married? "

(ouch!)

empty mind and weak heart

i feel soo WEAK right now :(

I dont know how and where to get energy to continue with my life

with out him around is lifeless

I can feel the pain through my vain 

and im loosing my mind every seconds of the day

This pain is soooo criminal its killing me slowly :( 

My tears make my pillow wet every-night cuz of this pain in me (tears from my eyes keeps on flowing)

I took energy drink today and last night just to get back to my work

but at the end of the day the pain is growing strong... specially when its 7:00pm cuz that's our dating hour :(

Every single minute of the day i think of Mr.C

How could he break my heart thinking that i JUST LOVED him!?

Im missing you right now..but i cant tell you.. cuz you dont want me around

YOu said im causing you stress and pressuring you :(

I never wish to be important to you but i want to be something for you

BUt for you IM NOTHING (and you said you have no time for nothing and thats what's hurt)

But despite all this I DO LOVE YOU still :*

kiss kiss and Hug

X.O.X.O

aira

cyril ko

all i need is you (i love you)

FOR YOU Mr.C

Lose someone i need makes my heart melt with pain and tears  :( 

with that YES? everything was just...... broked! :(

With that YES my heart was again in the dark side of No where.

WE only need time and space to realize what we are to each other

but why breaking up with me?.Just because of stress?.and your accusing me of not happy in a relationship with you?

how would you know?youre not me..how would you know that im not happy with you?

AS youve said my promise is troubled me?and that you said im desire of chatting with other guys?.I never ever want to chat with other guys  and i made that promise as part of my love for you..WHy cant you see that.!

Im contented that i have you why would i have to chat with other?.

Again cool off and break up is different!

But dont worry im not mad at all.. ;) im just hurt cuz of what you did and said last night.

I know you NEED time..and i maybe need some time too..

I love you and that feelings wont just go away you know why? cuz its real :(

I dont wanna let you go

I dont wanna lose you

and I cant let you go

But this is what you WANt (and i respect it)
and maybe it can make you feel Good

Hope YOU'll find yourself soon.

im gonna miss our chatting everyday

I'll just gonna stay here for you

I will wait till you feel fine

Till you feel that you miss me and need me

You know how to contact me

I will still kept my promise of not chatting with other

cuz im only yours

i love you :( 

the good bye

Mr.C wants to stop our chatting for his sake.He ddnt even think about "what i might feel".

his name was on her shirt

i dream of a girl wearing white shirt and the name of Mr.C was printed on her white shirt..but the face of that girl in my dream was blur.. I was hurt again cuz of it..cuz this few week Mr.C is soo cold..I dont want to admit that im tired of believing him.. I miss him but he ddnt even notice it :(

crazy aira

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Changes

Mr.C is always Busy..thats his always alibi ..he's online often but every after few minutes his gone again..for 90 days that's his always alibi.
There is no day that his not busy.
Or maybe he lost his appetite on talking to me online. I feel bad about it..
If he dont want me anymore he should have told me earlier and dont let me hanged..
i was hurting you know..I trusted him!

Its like his throwing me away by the way that his "always busy"
Until now im still honest to him and i dont want to chat with other guys cuz i promised to Mr.C that his the only one for me and i have to kept my promise coz i have my words.
By the way that his busy? (always offline) His hurting me more..and that pain causing me to go away from him :(
His ignoring me thou im hurting..His always out of side when i need him to be around.