I am pregnant

Its been a long time since i stopped writing my personal blog..And right now i dont know where to start cuz i got soo many things to say including my life now..But one thing for sure?.. "YES! I am pregnant" and the father? ofcourse no other than " Mr. Pretender".. the guy whom i met at C.B (Dating site).. He is a cancer survivor and all his doctors tell him that he cant have a baby..

And so I told him that Doctors are only human.But theres no impossible with God..If he really wants to have a baby? there's always a way..GOD is the way..He is miraculous and i so believe in him..And so whenever we go to the Church (old church in CEBU..the miraculous and historic church)  I always pray to God to give us a baby..I even fall in long long line just to get to the line through the end.. And yeah after 3 months he give us baby..And i cant believe it!! (swear to God) and so is he.. I mean no one would..But if you do believe in power of GOd and if you are sincere? he will listen..Just pray and mean it from the bottom of your heart.. ..
But we have a big fight lately.. and i guess i will gonna raise our baby alone...Just when u thought your relationship is complete and then suddenly this thing happened!

Thank you God..Hope someday Me and the father of my baby (Mr.Pretender) will be complete again,..
Hope wherever he is now..Hope he's always in Good hand..I Love him soo and i cant afford to know that he got hurt cuz of someone.. Oh God please save him and take him away from stupid girls and ambitious Girl..

Please make him feel that i love him soo and that i only want him to be happy wherever he is now..
Babe i love you  ('o") 

Faraway from my heart

God knows how i cry so hard just to ease the pain ..and i swear not to fall again.. :'( ... for the last time i fall inlove again but it cost me SOO MUCH pain ..pain that i could never ever imagine.. i cant face anyone anymore with a sweet smile.. this pain is soooo cruel.. and its drowning me.. I want to go FAR FAR away from every one! go some place that NO one knows me...cuz everywhere I Go i see your face :'( , every morning i hear your voice in my mind :'( ..i smell the coffee we use to take everyday :'( ..the place wer we hang out..our song :'( .. the stars in the skies, the full moon :'( , the movies that we always watch :'( and your favorite noodles..how i wish this PAIN TO GO AWAY... ( PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PAIN GOOOOOOOO AWAY) and how i wish to find a pain killer for this.. But although this is soo hurt i know that im gonna be okie again.. cuz i know I DID NOTHING WRONG...so HELP me GOD :'(

Goobye my lover

I love you but its over now..

HE love me but he love's her too (ugh)

Whenever i look around and think of what weve been through i cant help it but to cry :'(

I try to remember all the things that whe have had i just realized/noticed just now that its kinda perfect memories to treasure..

WHo would have thought that this guy would cross my way (on my way of searhing for someone to spend time with).

A guy who is soo crazy, and half is soo FUCKING SWEET,CHARMING and a crying baby :P (and a pooty ass..peace!)

Its all start in a big mistake but "CUPID's Arrow" hit me...I dont know why.. and of all girls why me?...Im confuse and dont know what to say..But i do believe that there is a reason why...Cuz all the things that happened here on living planet are God's plan. Maybe there is really a reason..

But why is it soo hurt..Its like im going to have a fever..I feel soo weak and that i cant stand straight nor think straight whenever i think about it..(and i cant breath)

I dont wannna give up on him but he's driving me away..

I love him but "she "  is around

I love you and im going crazy

You love me and you love her

Your with me all the time but you only pay attention on me when we eat our meal and a few time on caresing each other on bed cuddling and kicking each other's ass..

but base on my calculation ( lol ehehhe) for 100% ...

you spent 40 percent on your laptop ,

25% on ur cellphone

and25% on me..

10% on Tv.. 

oh men! did i got it right? (peace)

Father in heaven help me please..

In this pain your the only one who can save me and give me strenght to go on with this

Give me a sign..a sign that i might need...

Just give me one sign (atleast 1 one sign)

X.O.X.O

Luiese

valentines day for crazy people like me

My date didn't work well according to the planned..

I dont know why we always argue..Its just maybe cuz of his attitude he got mad easily and i hate it..

Im always pressured when his mad..But anyway we try to fix everything. Its  never to late to fix it right?.

 

but before that he wants me to leave him alone in our house..why cuz he wants arlene to be there..and to prove her that were not living together anymore :( grrrr!! i hope she die! that slut!)

anyway this is just a theory im just so mad and affected when he's soo mad..

(

In the end we  tried to fix it cuz valentines day is once a year..and soo everything is a bit fine ;)

it is actually fine..atleast we try and still a good valentines day..Maybe argueng on valentines day is part of it...Maybe GOD's will ;) 

I just noticed that he's cute when he's mad :) 

 

New home

I got home last night a bit early,thought i was gonna get home late as i dont get  a jeepny ride going to our new place..I heard that there is no jeep going on that Route ..And so i took Motorcycle..
When I got home i saw my men talking with new foreign friends ;) i was happy cuz atleast now he has a friend whom he can talk too :) while im at work..Its good cuz he wont feel boring anymore cuz of it ;)

They drink Beer!! (yeah beers!! 1000mLx4 weeww) thats to much men!  but anyway its fine..Atleast his happy..whats funny is that he's snore while sleeping ..ahahha (lol)

and when we woke up we went to the public market..i asked him not to go with me cuz he might feel tired..but he still want to go with me...(whatever!)..public market is stinky and crowded..i dont think he would like it there..He's head ache(hang over) will get worst..but then i bought him medicine to make sure.

When were at the market expectation is there lol (hhahahah)
but then we made it and out budget for 1 week is 1000.00 and we have to save and minimize all out expense as he dont get paid until the end of the month :)

We came home early cuz the rain is coming..i feel happy that we go to the market together..buying all the thing that we need..And i made him some Chicken Tinola (chicken soup) before i go to my work ;)

Oh men another beautiful day for us :)
and tomorrow were going to clean our new home :)

X.O.X.O
love you baby bruce ko

She called early in the morning

She called him while were sleeping..And he cancel it,. not because he doesnt want to talk but because i was around and lying next to him..And the girl keep on calling and so i asked him to Turn his phone off!. (and he did i what i told him).But then when were done on break fast I asked him

Aira : why is that girl is calling you again.(im in pain while asking him)?


Bruce say: she wants me and she wants to come here.


Aira say: She cant come here just like that...i thought she new that were together?from the beginning she knows..in short she has no right to "wants you nor need you..most of all she has no right to get jealous of me!!
 
How selfish of her to flirt on bruce to think Bruce is already taken..Cheap slut muther fucker whore FREAK!!

and bruce came out side to call her back and talk to her...and he doesnt want me to hear their talking...maybe she told her/me lots of lie..

well anyway im not gonna give him up for that kinda girl..never!
AS long as bruce wants me then ill never give him up!!
Over my dead body ( yaaeekz!)