HE love me but he love's her too (ugh)

Whenever i look around and think of what weve been through i cant help it but to cry :'(

I try to remember all the things that whe have had i just realized/noticed just now that its kinda perfect memories to treasure..

WHo would have thought that this guy would cross my way (on my way of searhing for someone to spend time with).

A guy who is soo crazy, and half is soo FUCKING SWEET,CHARMING and a crying baby :P (and a pooty ass..peace!)

Its all start in a big mistake but "CUPID's Arrow" hit me...I dont know why.. and of all girls why me?...Im confuse and dont know what to say..But i do believe that there is a reason why...Cuz all the things that happened here on living planet are God's plan. Maybe there is really a reason..

But why is it soo hurt..Its like im going to have a fever..I feel soo weak and that i cant stand straight nor think straight whenever i think about it..(and i cant breath)

I dont wannna give up on him but he's driving me away..

I love him but "she "  is around

I love you and im going crazy

You love me and you love her

Your with me all the time but you only pay attention on me when we eat our meal and a few time on caresing each other on bed cuddling and kicking each other's ass..

but base on my calculation ( lol ehehhe) for 100% ...

you spent 40 percent on your laptop ,

25% on ur cellphone

and25% on me..

10% on Tv.. 

oh men! did i got it right? (peace)

Father in heaven help me please..

In this pain your the only one who can save me and give me strenght to go on with this

Give me a sign..a sign that i might need...

Just give me one sign (atleast 1 one sign)

X.O.X.O

Luiese

valentines day for crazy people like me

My date didn't work well according to the planned..

I dont know why we always argue..Its just maybe cuz of his attitude he got mad easily and i hate it..

Im always pressured when his mad..But anyway we try to fix everything. Its  never to late to fix it right?.

 

but before that he wants me to leave him alone in our house..why cuz he wants arlene to be there..and to prove her that were not living together anymore :( grrrr!! i hope she die! that slut!)

anyway this is just a theory im just so mad and affected when he's soo mad..

(

In the end we  tried to fix it cuz valentines day is once a year..and soo everything is a bit fine ;)

it is actually fine..atleast we try and still a good valentines day..Maybe argueng on valentines day is part of it...Maybe GOD's will ;) 

I just noticed that he's cute when he's mad :) 

 

New home

I got home last night a bit early,thought i was gonna get home late as i dont get  a jeepny ride going to our new place..I heard that there is no jeep going on that Route ..And so i took Motorcycle..
When I got home i saw my men talking with new foreign friends ;) i was happy cuz atleast now he has a friend whom he can talk too :) while im at work..Its good cuz he wont feel boring anymore cuz of it ;)

They drink Beer!! (yeah beers!! 1000mLx4 weeww) thats to much men!  but anyway its fine..Atleast his happy..whats funny is that he's snore while sleeping ..ahahha (lol)

and when we woke up we went to the public market..i asked him not to go with me cuz he might feel tired..but he still want to go with me...(whatever!)..public market is stinky and crowded..i dont think he would like it there..He's head ache(hang over) will get worst..but then i bought him medicine to make sure.

When were at the market expectation is there lol (hhahahah)
but then we made it and out budget for 1 week is 1000.00 and we have to save and minimize all out expense as he dont get paid until the end of the month :)

We came home early cuz the rain is coming..i feel happy that we go to the market together..buying all the thing that we need..And i made him some Chicken Tinola (chicken soup) before i go to my work ;)

Oh men another beautiful day for us :)
and tomorrow were going to clean our new home :)

X.O.X.O
love you baby bruce ko

She called early in the morning

She called him while were sleeping..And he cancel it,. not because he doesnt want to talk but because i was around and lying next to him..And the girl keep on calling and so i asked him to Turn his phone off!. (and he did i what i told him).But then when were done on break fast I asked him

Aira : why is that girl is calling you again.(im in pain while asking him)?


Bruce say: she wants me and she wants to come here.


Aira say: She cant come here just like that...i thought she new that were together?from the beginning she knows..in short she has no right to "wants you nor need you..most of all she has no right to get jealous of me!!
 
How selfish of her to flirt on bruce to think Bruce is already taken..Cheap slut muther fucker whore FREAK!!

and bruce came out side to call her back and talk to her...and he doesnt want me to hear their talking...maybe she told her/me lots of lie..

well anyway im not gonna give him up for that kinda girl..never!
AS long as bruce wants me then ill never give him up!!
Over my dead body ( yaaeekz!) 

he did it again

I caught him again talking to that slut named arlene..I was soo insulted and was hurt cuz he kept on doin thesame thing..I cried many times and yet there he goes again..I always give my best and give him comfort and loving but all he gave me is tears,,I give up many things but he never grant the things that i want from him ( its only 1 thing)
He even told me that he like arlene..and that I wouldnt like what he will do if i will hurt arlen!! (i mean what is that all about?)
he kept on telling me that he love he but always in words but no action....
And so i decided to pack my bag and leave him and then he stopped me (he blocked the door)..I made up my mind already..besides that what he want to hear from me.He said hes tired of aguing with me..Duh?..he always starting it..not me..
I always make an adjustment thou i ddnt do anything..I aways got hurt thou its not my fault..He yell at me thou  its not my fault..IS that i can get on taking care of him too much? abusing my kindnesS?

Im tired of taking all his "fucking words" its cost me to much stress and i dont like it anymore..

I caught in the act

I went home last night (early than expected),,and tthen i caught him..i was hurt but im trying to control it,,He turn his phone into "loud speaker" and so i heard that girls voice again...


When i got there i called him and ask him "who is it babe"?
and the girl is not yet done on talking but he said to that girl "i gorra go!i gorra go!
and the girl keeps on talking...and soo i came closer to see who he talking to cuz he wont tell me..and wn i camme closer he shut off his phone..

I was thinking that the girl hear my voice too..(hope she did..cuz that man is mine ehhehe)
and wen i asked him again? he answered me "its arlene (confirmed)
He  try to dial again for 3 times and no one is answering...
and then i ask again..who u calling again?are u gonna talk to her in front of me? (its soo disrespect)
And soo he said he has to call her "muther fucker sister?..

and then after he called someone he just Got soooo mad..and throwing everything and broke his phone till theres no more left..

im confuse did he really got mad cuz of her sister?or cuz of i caught him talking to that girl again?and also the girl heard my voice on the  phone...well as far as i can remember i talked soo loud and i am soo sure that she hear me..i even called him "baby"..

SHE KISSED MY MAN?!

he told me that he ddnt meet her..but then i saw their pics and the girl kissed her!! (i want to kill her)

he still wants to see her

Today is his flight going back to our country..Ive been longing to see him again..But on his first day of his flight that girl named  "HJ" is the girl whom he wants to see first.. :(

Its soo unfair right? telling you that ..he only want you and there's no other girl but you..and yet there he goes again..looking for the girl who never wish to see him nor once.,

He never learned his lesson....nontheless if he told me the wrong stories nor lie again (again and again)...

i cant compete with a girl whom he loved first (i know)but past is past..why dont we all move on..

Its unfair to let someone believe in you and yet you keep on fooling around ..

GUys? would u want us girls to DO THE SAME?

Im not yet tired but someday maybe i will...

"sigh"